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[Aug. 20th, 2007|09:12 am] |
School starts. well in 4 hours. and i cant make it cause im in florida. Im payin tuition today along with my parking pass. I got mail at lorens dads so i can go get my new licence cause mine expires in a month. Things are good. i shouldnt complain about anything.
Money situation is ok.
loren is recording ( turns out he wont be back till oct 9th) and he ll leave again in november for the release of thier CD thats going to be in all stores , even wal mart in january.
but i need to focus on school cause i have a science with lab. and i am horrible at science. i cant even use a ruler properly. ug.
i know i never post anymore. but for a while. i didnt have a stong interenet connection and i just didnt see the point. but it might keep me busy and focused while my favorite two people go away for 2 months and more.
But im also excited that i have more friends going to my school. People from highschool and charles from work. And I think Eric is moving in for a month while the boys are gone. he is good at science, hopefully he ll help me understand better.
i need to busy myself.
with things like.. going to gallery openings ( as seen here with jessie)
ill try posting more often. see ya |
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[Apr. 28th, 2007|01:50 am] |
i can feel myself getting very depressed here soon. I have two room mates. But thier money situation is tight. and i need to find one more. but i cant. everything keeps falling through. it would break my heart if this was all for nothing and i would have to go back. move everything again. doing all this fucking work for nothing. my heart breaks thinking about it. ive worked so hard on this place. me and loren painting every room. Tearing up carpets. cleaning out cabnets. moving furniture. hanging pictures.
loren paid his rent, i m giving almost all my pay check though some does go to school supplies.
Joe hopefully is paying this monday. but that still leaves 250 . I hope Dan pulls though and actually gives us his rent. nothings going right it seems. People are really just letting me down left and right. I dont really trust people to much any more. i dont expect much from people any more. they got their own agendas. which is fine i guess. i got mine too. i dont want to have to sell the house. i m bumbed lorens gone, that ill be here in this big house alone for a month. Amalias gone too. school is pretty much over. And the one class i wanted to take all summer long , Workshop, where i was gonna work onmy senior show i dont htink i can do now. We cant afford it. i was really looking forward to that. but i have work and i can see people. i was gonna work out with heather at the gym, go swimming. I plan on seeing karen here and there. probably go drive to a show if we both can. there are some birthdays comming up i wanna go to. But all this anxiety is so shitty. im sick of not having any real time for myself. working weekends and school. then giving away all my pay check just cause for some fucking reason no one wants to live in a huge house, with low rent, avaiable parking, no utlities, two bathrooms, ect, deck. its pisses me off really. my situation is shitty too. My friends in kentucky dont wanna drive far away from school. and my friends in cincy all wanna be close or pretty much live on campous. you fuckers, geta fucking car.
i mean it. i think i might break in two if i have to sell this house, and it was all for nothing. i dont think id be up for another year of school. loren said i could move in with him, karen and eric since they are not selling the house. ( bad market for houses so even if we do try and sell the house, it would take forever and still... more debt)
y did this all have to happen to me? something needs to change. i ve delt with this wonderfully and i need some good karma coming my way.
if i have to move again... i dont know. ill doing something else. this needs to stop |
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[Apr. 7th, 2007|03:21 pm] |
things have totally gone to hell.
its just a complete mess. I dont think eric and karen are moving over here. I feel like all i have been doing is cleaning and trying to get this house to work and no one sees it or they just expect way too much. I dont have any days free! i dont know what people want. People who have the weekends and some dont even have jobs. here i have school and work that compose my whole week/ life. I feel pretty good i got almost ALL The rooms repainted. The plumbing has been fixed. the ceilings patched up. all of things put away. and still... no gratitude. still more request. still more complaints. well what the fuck! i can t move huge furniture by my self! things that wieght like 100-200 pounds aka butchers tabel and that huge ass antique washer sink thing. so......
i need a room mate. Loren is still coming over and joe is still coming. Eric and karen i dont think are. and we just need to get people in here. I need to sell those fucking leather couches. i need help.
they let me have today off cause there were 3 12pm-8pm people. which iis crazy and i think everyone could tell that i was having the worst day. and believe me, everyone was having a bad day. so... i just sold the hutch, its outta here. i m writing up a resume to apply at mustard seed cause they pay 8 going to 10 dollars and the shifts are 4-9! and apparently they need people and now jessie works there. and i am going later to drop off the resume as i go see grind house which i hear from everyone at work is AWSOME. i wish i had someone to go with . amalias gone and loren is gone. and i dont really feel like hanging out with anyone else honestly. err. I am tired of being positive. its not helping |
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[Apr. 4th, 2007|10:20 am] |
we got the living room looking ok. we hung a bunch of art work and hung some of lorens Geee tars. The plumbing can not be changed, water pressure wise. the house is too old. oh well. Our room is now 1/3 tuscany red orange. It looks really good. and its the kinda paint were you can draw on with chalk, just like a chalk board! Now Joe is moving in, so no utlities for us. and...we are fixing up the basement to be a screen printing workshop. I am excited and i am excited that there are only 3 weeks of school left! whooo hoooooo
number of people soon living in the house. 1+1+1+1+1+1+1=7!!!!!!!!!!! OMG |
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[Mar. 30th, 2007|11:47 am] |
i dont work tonight since i covered for david on weds! I love not working on friday. whoo hooo. hopefully tonight... or at 3... me and loren will start taking over some of his stuff.
its so pretty out. I m just waiting for the trees by my house to bloom, they have really pretty pink flowers. And i want loren, eric and karen to see how pretty the house gets in spring.
I m gonna see if i can joing the Ymca that karen goes to so when the guys are gone we can go swimming together to pass the time by.
I am also hoping that diane will put me on for more hours in the summer time so i can help with tuition next year. ( i am also gonna apply for some scholarships) |
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[Mar. 23rd, 2007|12:53 pm] |
I think i just failed my theatre appreciation test. fuck. oh well.
well. amalias gone. loren comes back today. but then leaves again in april. so for like a month and a half...
ill just try busying myself with work.
foooey |
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[Jan. 20th, 2007|11:16 am] |
this week is. ok.
i got some good prints in screen printing class, no one liked my not to the edge making a invisible frame idea. i just thought i need ed something at the top. what ever.
Um. my english teacher is a hippie, ok, but he always keeps figiting with his shit on his desk. like his water bottel. he goes to pick it up, no wait, dont do that, then he does, but then just to put it back down again. i think i spend more time in the class wondering if he ll actually drink the fucking thing or just walk around wiht it. contemplating when to put it down again. ug. and in that class there are two annoying over achievers that are absolute idiots. one happens to be like a geeky kid, you know its cool. they dont bother me but he raises his hand for everything and then blanks out on the answer. and you seehim staring at aww at our not so great teacher, shaking his head yes to everything the man says. then there is a flamboyant gay guy. which to everyone who knows me i have nothing agains that. i went to a gay church, i am not a hater. but it just kinda makes it worse. i think the guy wants to be realy deep and i dont know. its ljust like the other kids, he raises his hand all the time, even when there isnt a question, and if there isa question, he doesnt answer it. he kinda just makes a dumb state ment that we all knew. like, "yea, the dog was there". what??? shut up for the love of god. i cant take the two idiots and my teacher never knowing what to do with his hands. shit fuck mother shit
so i am moving. still. loren, karen and eric are moving in hopefully , soon that they sell thier house by march. If not then i start paying doule my rent. but its ok, i m really wanting to move again. me and loren have already painted the kitchen, the living room, the hall way, the stair way and eric and karens room. and loren tore up the carpet on the stairs.
loren is in LA. which was just suppose to be 5 days, then it turned into 6 days and now maybe 8 days. the man is horrible about time. or just. not even that, the whole trip was based on miscommunication. and i am going loony not knowing a specific day he is coming back, or being winded by thinkgin ooooh. another day. and then yet another day. fuck. guess i am just bumbed. another weekend gone, and then he ll be gone again for 16 days in feb. Ya know, i am ok, when he actually comes back on the day he says he ll come back cause i set myself up, ok, its only gonne be 5 days. when that gets fucked with then i am not so good.
i saw with Amalia, brian, steph, and DAVID last night, "the curse of the golden flower". basicly cool action scenes, awsome rainbow and gold palace, ok plot, typical asian insest sex, and a not so happy ending, i was not toooooo surprised by the movie. but i did like it. chow yong fat is for the first time creeepy in my eyes.
the night before that i saw the notebook with heather. i only picked it because i heard that is was really sad. and a romance. i was wondering if it could break my stone cold heart. ha. that it did. just like cold mountain. i cryed alot in that fucking movie. that guys is so oooooo cute. andhe d make cupid look like an asshole.
i dont wanna work. but i need money. off to work i go |
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[Jan. 9th, 2007|01:04 pm] |
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I have an idea for a movie for film class. It has to be 30 seconds long. No longer no less. It has to be an auto biography. So i thought i go with the theme that i am messy. I kinda want it to have that shaking feeling in the beginning of amalie where she is a little kid. But the movie will start out with me sitting at my desk drawing on papaer ( this is fast and sketchy the editing) what i am drawing on is a flip book. Then i walk up to the camera and start to show the flip book . It gets closer and closer. ( the flip book is a stick person of em saying "im messy") then the flip book turns into bigger paper getting more and more out of control where it flyes every where. then i lay in a pile of paper that contines to rise like water then drowns me.
Thats all i have so far. I like it alot though. I hope soon they teach me stop animation so i can get a jump on this and add some more things.
almost time for basic photography |
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